Just 4 short weeks ago I came to a mile marker in life that can serve as the impetus for challenge and change or for disappointment and denial. Yes, I turned 40. The funny thing is I didn't ponder this striking reality the week of my birthday. Call it denial or busyness but while dodging trees and cutting corners today on a magnificent trail run, it hit me like a brick.
I was winding in and out of the crowded beauty of the forest, soaking in the cool breeze and the playful songs of the birds when I began to think about where I want to be headed in life. On the precipice of parenting and at a stage in life where I'm considering the second chapter of my vocational story, my mind felt clouded with options, questions, and unknowns.
So this is a mid-life crisis!!! Well, not really! I'm just in a place of wondering. Wondering about the coming year as a father, a husband, and a man who sincerely desires to lead others to know and enjoy the Lord! I find myself wondering about the trajectory of the next 4 to 5 years of my life. I think of personal and ministry goals and how I will continue to move forward with the Lord, trusting Him each day for daily bread and for His Kingdom to come.
As I write this I look out to see the setting sun washed sky. Beauty stretched out all around me. I'm reminded that God is real - God is Sovereign - God is active and involved in the here and now. And not just active as a transcendant deity far removed from human experience, but involved as a father in the lives of His children. This thought of God as Father is riveting! This truth gives me courage to consider the coming chapter of life and ministry. This truth motivates me to pray, seek, ask, and knock.
Rest Assured that even at the age of 40, or especially at the age of 40, I still have only to look to God as Father - as good - as Sovereign - and there I find peace!
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